Thursday, July 2, 2015

Running Update

It has been a long, long time since I have posted anything on my blog about running. I wrote one post about cheating but deleted it. It made me too upset to think about, and recently I have lost a lot of respect for some of the people in and associated with the sport. Running isn't the sport I remember. It's starting to look more like the pro cycling world. There are even rumors about people cheating in mountain racing. That seems incredibly wrong for some reason. Not that using anything to enhance performance on the track or roads is acceptable, but I never imagined a mountain runner would be the type to cheat. I guess where there's money, there will be cheaters, though. I'm just glad I ran when I was either too naive to believe people operated in the gray and black area in running, or was not exposed to those types because there were fewer issues with doping back then. Either way, it's depressing to think that this is what running has become.

For a more thorough examination of the whole Alberto scandal happening now, you might want to go here and read what Kevin Beck has to say about it:  http://beckofthepack.blogspot.com/

Switching gears...

For the first time in years, I have been able to do some jogging. I might even be able to call it running, but I'm still quite limited. Basically, I'm dealing with five separate issues, a few of which might actually be connected.

1. Endometriosis - since I got an IUD, the bleeding is much, much better. The cramps still strike and bring me to my knees from time to time, but overall, things are much improved. I know things are worse when I develop any ovarian cysts, but knowing what's going on helps a lot when it comes to managing pain. The only lingering problem, aside from random cramps, is sex can be challenging. I get pain and cramping both during and days after, which seems to be what others experience with this condition. I'm still trying to figure out the best ways to deal with it.

2. Nerve issues - my left foot is plagued with a few damaged and/or inflamed nerves. Cortisone shots have helped some, but I get a systemic reaction to those and try to limit the number of times I get them. Shots in the foot are not fun.

3. Possible torn toe pad - my right foot decided to protest all the limping I was doing after surgeries on the left foot. For a few years now, my toes on the right side have been making a V-sign. It's weird, but it pulls on my hamstring and calf on that side. I recently got an MRI. I hope something can be done, but I also know that surgery is the way doctors usually go to repair this kind of mess. We will see.

4. Labral tears - I saw a third doctor about the hip issues I was having. He was very, very good and did not push for surgery like the others had. He showed me exactly what was going on on the MRI. I could see the tears, but the hip joints look pretty good. As long as I can tolerate the pain, I'm not going to jump into surgery.

5. Upper hamstring tendinitis - I think most runners deal with this, so it's not even worth mentioning, really. It's one more thing that I have to watch and monitor.

Otherwise, things are rolling along smoothly. I can't run the way I would like, but it feels so incredibly good to be able to get out on the trails and move!

The podcast is coming along nicely. I hope people are enjoying the interviews I have posted. though not exactly related, it looks like I will be contributing to a book project relating to running.

I ran a longish trail run and even did a harder workout this week, so I wouldn't feel so bad about missing the Vail Hill Climb this weekend. I really wanted to run it, but I'm just not there yet. My record from years ago was smashed to pieces, and I don't even remember my time or the current record there. I can never remember my times. I even fucked up my fastest 10K time, thinking it was 35:15 when it was actually 35:04 at the Run for the Zoo in Denver in the 80s. Oops. These days, my fast jog pace probably couldn't even approach an 8-minute mile, but I'm happy I'm able to move with less pain.

By the way, people can get a free copy of my "Training on Empty" book at the Flatiron Running store in south Boulder while supplies last.

Happy 4th, everyone!




Monday, June 29, 2015

TOE- Interview with Sue Ann Gleason

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Sue Ann Gleason




More information about Sue Ann:


Sue Ann Gleason is food lover, food writer, food-based healer and champion for women who want to lead a more delicious, fully expressed life. She has been featured in Oprah and Runner's World magazines and numerous online publications.

When not working with private clients or delivering online programs, Sue Ann can be found sampling exotic chocolates or building broccoli forests in her mashed potatoes.
Be sure to check out her upcoming program, Eat Your Way to Gorgeous, to explore all the ways you can make food fun so you can be more spontaneous in meal planning and take advantage of the abundance of summer produce that awaits you.

You can connect with Sue Ann in a number of places. Delicious freebies await you!

Joyful Eating: http://www.chocolateforbreakfast.com/
Nourished Living: http://consciousbitesnutrition.com/

Monday, June 15, 2015

TOE- Interview with Adrienne Asselmeier

Interview with Adrienne Asselmeier about healthy weight loss, quitting smoking and running.



For more information about the Gazelle Girl Half Marathon, please visit the following link:  http://gazellegirlhalfmarathon.com/

Monday, June 1, 2015

TOE - Interview with Kevin Hadsell

Kevin Hadsell discusses his transition from running coach to actor.



For more information about Kevin, visit his website at the following link:  http://www.coffeetalkradio.com/


Kevin Hadsell

Monday, May 18, 2015

TOE - Interview with Jenn Friedman

Interview with Jenn Friedman, a singer/songwriter and musician from New York who is also an author and eating disorder recovery advocate.



For more information about Jenn, please visit her website at the following link: http://jennfriedman.com/

Jenn Friedman

Monday, May 11, 2015

Monday, May 4, 2015

TOE 4 - Interview with Rachael Steil

Interview with Rachael Steil, founder of the blog Running in Silence.





Rachel discusses her own recovery, orthorexia and running. She helps give people a better understanding of what led to her own struggles with food and how she was able to take the steps needed in order to recover.


Rachael Steil

Tuesday, April 28, 2015

My Other Birthday

I don't have an exact date, but sometime in April is my other birthday. It's the time of year that I celebrate surviving the worst of two bouts of viral meningitis.

Sometimes I look back and am surprised I survived at all. I often get angry at the doctors who discounted me and acted like this illness that nearly killed me was all in my head. It's hard to believe after telling the first doctor I saw that I don't usually go running to doctors and knew something was wrong, she brushed me off and told me it was probably hormonal. At least the ER doctor acknowledged that I was sick and said so, even though he couldn't find anything major off in my blood work.

It was a long, difficult road back. Sometimes you don't realize how challenging things are until your life is running more smoothly. Looking back, I can see that it actually took years for me to get back on my feet.

One thing I have noticed is that most people, when I mention the meningitis, are quick to say, "At least it wasn't bacterial meningitis!" Well, true. I'm "lucky" I guess, but that's like getting breast cancer and being told, "At least is wasn't lung cancer!" Um, OK... three cheers? And the fact that it wasn't cancer is another lucky point for me. Yes, viral meningitis is considered the milder form of the illness and it's not cancer, but that doesn't mean that it's like getting a touch of the flu, especially when you get it as an adult.

Where my true luck plays out is in surviving an illness that kills up to 20 percent of the people who get it and doing so without any long-term complications like deafness or brain damage.

It's fine if people think viral meningitis is no big deal. I'm going to use this time to be grateful for coming out the other end, even though there were times I didn't think I would and one time in particular I actually thought I wouldn't. The truth is that I'm both amazed and happy that I pulled through.


Sunday, April 26, 2015

Mike Stanley - Feb 22 1945 - March 5th 2015

Michael Stanley Obituary
Michael Stanley Feb 22 1945 - March 5th 2015


It's always difficult to put thoughts together after shocking and upsetting news. Even though much time has passed since I first heard that Mike Stanley, a retired teacher and wrestling coach in Boulder, didn't survive a heart attack while riding mountain bikes with his son in Alaska, I'm still having trouble putting down words. When I first got the news, I was in shock that soon gave way to tremendous sadness. I didn't want to believe it was true. News this heavy seemed unreal.

Mike's memorial was held at my former high school on April 11th. At that same school is where I first met him and also where he taught science. I never had him as a teacher, but he became an unofficial assistant cross country coach, at least in my eyes. Mostly I remember Mike heading to the higher mountains with a small group of us during the summer in which I was training for the Pikes Peak ascent. He was busy climbing to the top of as many Colorado 14ers as he could and would eventually summit them all.

One of the first people I saw when I was about to enter the auditorium for the memorial service was my former track and cross country coach. He was also one of the speakers. I was deeply moved when he mentioned that he had heard the interview I did on KGNU with Diane Israel and Carmen Cool. He gave me a warm hug and told me that he was proud of me. Of course, this made me want to bawl. I was in tears before the memorial even started, but so were many others.

There were many stories, mostly confirming how positive Mike always was. Some stories made us laugh, most brought more tears. Susan, Mike's wife, spoke, and I wished so badly that I could take away her pain. I wished the same for his children.  It seemed everyone in the audience knew how lucky we all were to have known such a kind and generous man.

On the day I set the record at Pikes, Mike was there at the finish line. I can't figure out how he found the time to support so many people from all walks of life, but he was continually there for students, athletes, his peers, his colleagues, friends, family and anyone else who needed. The last few miles of the race were tough for me. At one point with at least 10 more minutes to go, I could no longer feel my lower body. Even my arms were tired, but through sheer willpower, I forced myself across the finish line where I promptly collapsed. Before I hit the ground, I felt someone at my side, his arm around my waist holding me upright. Someone else rushed to my other side. Mike and Fairview's head track coach at the time, Terry Altenborg, helped me get to the medical tent for a dose of oxygen and a warm blanket. Looking back, I can say that's just how Mike was, always willing to help in any situation. He witnessed one of my greatest achievements in life. I will never forget that moment.

My last conversation with Mike was when I ran into him and his wife at the store. The three of us were discussing a mutual friend who had been struggling badly with an eating disorder. In his usual form, he was trying to figure out ways in witch to help. Once again, he was always ready to offer guidance, encouragement, love and support.

When a person like Mike steps off the planet, it's impossible to not feel a terrible sense of loss. You want the world to stop spinning for a moment and for everyone to acknowledge his absence. You want to fill the emptiness and stop the pain, but more than anything, you just want him back. The world doesn't have enough genuinely good people, so losing someone as kind as Mike hits hard.

In moving forward, I know that everyone Mike taught, mentored, inspired and loved will carry his memory forever in his or her heart. There hasn't been a day since I got the news that I haven't thought about him. I can only hope to use him as a role model and aim to do good in the world.


Mike, on the left, was always willing to offer a hand.

Because it's one of the few things that offers me any comfort in times of great sorrow and loss, I will share Carl Sagan's quote, a dedication to his wife when she passed away:

“In the vastness of space and the immensity of time, it is my joy to share a planet and an epoch with Annie."

Wednesday, April 22, 2015

TOE3- Interview with Kevin Beck

Interview with Kevin Beck:




For more information about Kevin, please visit his website at www.kemibe.com

Kevin Beck

Monday, April 13, 2015

TOE 2 - A Brief History

Lize talks about her past and how she developed anorexia and then overcame it.




For more information about Carolyn Rothstein, please visit her website at:
http://www.carolinerothstein.com/


For more information about Diane Israel, please visit her website at:
www.beautymarkmovie.com

Thursday, April 9, 2015

TMI

There's a fine line between sharing and sharing too much. One thing I am in the process of learning is that there are safe places to share intimate details and not so safe places. This applies to people as well. A problem arises when you think you are sharing in a safe setting, and it turns out not to be. This happens both online and in real life.

A good example is sharing in a group or forum online. In general, a forum with guidelines that specifically promote ideas about recovery from an eating disorder usually ends up being a safe setting, but that's not always the case. I recently left a group that had all kinds of declarations about stopping pro-ana sentiment, yet every chance the moderator got, he posted triggering content. When other group members called him out on it, his response was something along the lines of, "Get a tougher skin."

What concerns me more is sharing with someone you feel you can trust and finding out later that you shouldn't have opened yourself up for potential wounding. I guess the lesson here is once bitten, twice shy. In other words, find out quickly who has your back, and if someone uses something you shared in confidence against you, avoid giving that person intimate details again. Same thing when someone can't be honest with you. While I generally forgive pretty easily, I'm careful about trusting.

That said, when you find people you can trust, keep them close.

I haven't been writing lately, and it shows. Sometimes when there's a lot going on in life, I isolate and focus more on distractions.

In the last few weeks, I have been working on creating a radio show/podcast that addresses eating disorders, recovery, body image, athletics, health and women's issues. The shows will air locally on Sunday nights from 6:30 - 8 p.m. MST. I've done two test shows, one on Bulimia posted just before this post, and one my own history, just a quick rehash of where I have been and where I'm headed. When I did that one, it was unplanned and very unstructured.

I still can't quite put my finger on all the reasons why, but I felt funny after we wrapped things up with the second recording. It felt like a lot of me, me, me. Maybe I shared too much. My co-host was very kind and assured me that it was not unlike what goes on during AA meetings, where people share their story in an effort to inspire others. Still, sometimes it's hard to know where the line of too much and not enough is when it comes to spilling your guts. Hopefully I will find a happy medium. Mostly, though, these recordings are going to be about other people and recovery in general.

I've got a few interviews lined up, but if you or anyone you know has a recovery story to share, please contact me at ggirl.kglr@gmail.com


TOE - Episode 1: Recovery from Bulimia


Tuesday, March 31, 2015

Running and Other Things

Since I have been doing more podcasts, I have let my writing slide.

It has been forever since I even mentioned running. I basically limped my way through the last few years, but I'm finally getting to the bottom of things. Thanks to the help of some good doctors, physical therapists and friends, I can do some jogging without too much pain. Well, that's relative, but it hurts less. It doesn't feel perfect, but I'm glad I can get outside again. Of the three surgeries I am a good candidate for, I'm only considering one at the moment, and that's only if other measures don't work. I've ruled out a hysterectomy, hip surgery and am putting off minor foot surgery for now. I feel good about my decisions, mostly because I think surgery isn't something to rush into, even if doctors "strongly suggest" getting it done as soon as possible, at least not with these kinds of things. Going for a third opinion for my hip issue made things much more clear in my mind, so I'm glad I didn't jump onto the cutting board.

On an unrelated note...

Sometimes when life gets weird, it's hard to know how to address certain issues, if at all. My tendency is to want to ignore others when they act in unscrupulous ways, but sometimes ignoring incidents leaves me with the sense that justice isn't being served. If I try to write out one particular situation, the whole thing seems trivial and downright silly, very junior high, but because it involves someone who appears to be unstable or at least incredibly inconsistent, it leaves me slightly on edge. I won't go into detail and apologize for being vague, but I don't want to give this series of events much attention or energy. It's not worth it. Sometimes when a person has a history of lying, manipulating and meddling, even in the lives of people she or he barely knows, it's best to shut that door hard and quickly back away. Give someone enough rope...well, you know the rest.

It's odd that just after someone in my life came to me about an issue going on with his online stalker, a different friend of mine was accused by a recent ex of doing things he never did. The former situation is the silly one that nobody really cares about, except that it's slightly annoying when you know the truth behind certain events and see someone determined to try to convince others that something far from real is going on, but in the latter situation, my friend has been forced to give up a lot because of one person's false accusations. I remember another incident that happened a few years ago. In a fit of anger and rage, one of my friend's ex girlfriends egged his house and keyed his car. I'm not sure what this accomplished. She claimed she still loved him at the time.

One of the worst stories I know about relating to sheer spite happened years ago to a lady I know. Her abusive ex almost cost her a job, her license, her reputation and a lot of money when he tried to convince the people she worked for that she had done things she never did. Fortunately, nobody believed him and knew he had pulled stunts like this in the past. My friend found a lawyer to represent her. It's good to have friends or family members who are lawyers. I sat in on the trial, and the ex showed his true colors by interrupting the judge more than a few times to blurt out defamatory and irrelevant comments. The judge was not impressed and quickly put him in his place. My friend was fine in the end, but people like her ex are scary.

While I understand hurt, anger and regret, I don't get the desire for revenge or public shaming, especially if it's aimed at someone who tried to help you or you were supposedly in love with. The exception is when revenge simply means doing as well as you can in life, the "success is the best revenge" type thing. That I get, except if you try to rub people's nose in it, which isn't nice. In general, I can't quite figure out why people waste so much time plotting, stalking and spending time and energy on "getting back" at someone for simple rejection.

I have found that the best approach with people who thrive on spreading lies, poking the bees and flinging crap is to take the high road and keep coming back to yourself. As much as you can, ignore anyone who is dead set on filling the world with toxicity. Take steps to protect yourself, especially if the person lives near you. Mostly, remind yourself that you know who you are, and your friends and family know what kind of person you are. Anyone who is spending loads of time indirectly or directly ripping on you in public or in private isn't worth your time. That's gotta be a sad, sad life to lead, full of resentment, anger and hate. 

As for my friend who was recently forced to give up his charity work because of one woman's lies, he has all the support he needs to deal with this unhinged individual and the awful situation she created. I'm sure he will get through this just fine no matter what his ex does next, but it's unfair that people who are in the wrong and know it often temporarily come out on top. My feeling is that the truth will eventually surface, and even if it doesn't in any satisfactory way, he will be able to move forward without any trouble. Honesty goes a long way. If you contradict yourself every time you open your mouth or put words out in the world, nobody will be able to trust you. 

My last piece of advice is stating the obvious, but be careful when meeting people online. 


May 23 2015 published actual date.